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Isis’s Metal Post.

Well, just like the title says. I feel like writing something a little silly today, to break from the seriousness. So, it’s metal time!

To give a little background, I’m a newer entity to this system,  and the only one in it who likes metal of any kind. That’s right, old metal, new metal, black metal, reggae metal, death metal, etc. Sure, Air is into some metal, but not to the extent that I am. Probably because she can’t do the vocals for shit, and I can (Classical vocal training, it’s a hard thing to break). I’ve spent many a day driving with B(Air’s boyfriend), blaring Five Finger Death Punch or Slipknot, with he and I scaring the shit out of the people in other cars because they see some small chick head-banging and death growling. It’s quite a show. Of course, he’s introduced me to a lot of awesome metal, because Air has all of two metal bands on her Ipod. So everyone else has they’re favorite bands, but I get short-changed in that end. I have Slipknot and FFDP, which are current favorites of mine, but not anything else. They have all they’re Emilie Autumn and Evenescence, but that really isn’t my cup of brutal tea, really. So, I am taking the opportunity to talk about some of my favorites, and hope that those who read this will give me the names of some other good metal bands. Air is going to make us each an Ipod playlist, and mine would be a little scarce without some fattening up on the music that I like. So anyway, on to the posting!

Band 1: Slipknot.

Why I like them: They’re just awesome. I like Corey’s voice, and his metal vocals are superb. For me, I’m jealous I didn’t come around two years ago when Air saw them live. Lucky bitch. Anyway. I just really dig their sound and lyrics. I have a hard time deciding my favorite song by them, though. And I know, people hate on them, but fuck you guys. If someone likes them or not, it’s whatever. I consider them metal, and if you don’t, that’s your deal. Some awesome songs,

“Snuff”-So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

And I won?t listen to your shame
You ran away, you?re all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don?t ever let me know
If you still care don?t ever let me know

It’s a slower song, but it’s pretty awesome. I love fucked up songs about love. 😉

“Pulse of the Maggots”-I won’t, be the inconsequential
I won’t, be the wasted potential
I can make it, as severe as I can
Until you realize
You’ll never take a stand
It isn’t, just a one-sided version
We’ve dealt, with a manic subversion
And I won’t, let the truth be perverted
And I won’t leave another victim deserted

-Oh, so many memories with this one. I love the lyrics. I need to have another metal day with B(My partner is into rap. It’s kind of weird…) This is the one we blow out our vocal cords on. No joke. It’s kind of my theme song.

“Vermillion Pt 1”-Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed And crazy, Aphid Attraction
Carve my name in my face, to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize

I won’t let this build up inside of me

This song could definitely be my description. I don’t know why, but this song calls to me. Something about it. Plus, it’s fucking twisted.

Band 2: Five Finger Death Punch.

Why I like them: Well, the lead singer is from UFC. He does MMA, and he makes fun of Evenescence. Which is hilarious. They’re lyrics are really good, and I like his voice a lot, both metal and standard singing. This band is actually going to Mayhemfest this year! I am going, no doubt about it. 😀 I might pit, if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m in a small chick’s body. *Sigh*

“Salvation”-I won’t bow to something that I’ve never seen
I can’t believe in something that doesn’t believe in me
I’m not blood of your blood, I’m no son of your god
I’ve no faith in your fate
Still I find salvation

Oh, where do I begin? Well, aside from sending a big FUCK YOU to fanatical religious folk (Note I said fanatical, regular religious folk are quite nice) I like everything about this song. They singing, the death growling, the music. It’s just a good song.

“My Own Hell” -Twisting and turning unable to sleep
My thoughts speak louder the more I resist

Inside I’m a danger to myself
Inside I’m a prisoner of my own hell

When you listen to this song, it sounds vaguely familiar. Then you realize something. He is totally ripping on Evenescence. It sounds like “Going Under”. If you think it’s a coincidence, compare the lyrics. Oddly similar. Plus, in the song “Hate Me (Succubus)” The lyrics go “I don’t want to be your tourniquet
For minor lacerations
don’t wanna be your Romeo
Because you’re no Goddamn Juliet”

Yeah, well, Look at that. I don’t know what the deal is with the song writer and Amy Lee, but obviously, they had some shit going on. Most people wouldn’t notice that, because it’s not really obvious, but it’s there. I wonder if Amy Lee’s heard this shit… I love it when bands write songs to bash other bands. It’s hilarious.

Other bands: These bands are some that I know a few songs, but haven’t gotten any misc from yet.



Fear Factory

Lamb of God

An a bunch whose names escape me at the moment. I know B has a lot of metal, and I know he’s sharing it eventually. If anyone has good bands, let me know. I really want to find new stuff to listen to!



Review of “The Woman with 15 Personalities”

Isis here! Well, folks out there in internet-land, it’s my first post, and it’s been decided that I do the review of The Woman With 15 Personalities on Discovery Health. It premiered last night, and we decided to check it out.

So, we, or at least I, was expecting something different from the trite, ridiculous, stereotypical nonsense that we saw. Of course, Eris wasn’t surprised in the least, but she’s cynical, so she has low expectations when people try to speak about people like us. So, onto the review, shall we?

First off, I didn’t know we made wind chime sounds when we switched. That’s news to me. Maybe the “dissociation” makes me unaware of it? (Note, some people do dissociate and lose time, but the assumption that everyone does is BULLSHIT. If you do, you do, but we don’t. You know what they say about assumptions…) Aside from sounding like a sparklepyre going out into the sunlight whenever the woman switched personalities, there were a lot of other things that were wrong with this special.

First off, the “Labeling of the separate selves”. Instead of different people with different unique looks and personalities, they are categorized into boxes like “The Inner Self Helper”, “The Protector”, “The Temptress”, “The Scared Child”, and so on. The all had their own names, likes, and dislikes, but of course, “They’re not really people”. (More on that in a bit) These labels are harmful to the person/alter who gets forced into this role, especially the ones stuck into the role of the “Self-Harmer”. You tell someone something enough, they are going to believe it, and this is true of us as well. We are seen as disordered, fucked up, crazy, insane, and other things, even if we function. We MUST have an unstable person living there. We did in fact have a violent and unstable resident. However, we have personal responsibility, and made sure that she didn’t hurt the body or others. Then, we talked to her, and sought to communicate with her. She is no longer violent, and can handle herself quite well. Celeste has been doing very well, and she is able to interact without us worrying about her harming anything. This is what a functioning system does; Takes responsibility for their family. We are aware at all times what of what the others are doing. There was no responsibility in the system. Freedom, the “Temptress”, got away with ordering porn and doing other things to make the “Host” uncomfortable and fear that she had reckless sex with strangers while Freedom was out. My question is, what the fuck was going on in the system to allow it to happen? This is disordered, not because she’s multiple, but because they can’t communicate. Example, say I had killed someone. Then everyone else is responsible for not keeping me in check. Everyone would be held accountable, because we have a responsibility to everyone living here to make sure that we don’t fuck up.

Also, the therapist was a huge dick. He was condescending as hell. “Alters aren’t people. We don’t see little skeletons popping up in brain scans” Well, jackass, what the FUCK do you consider a person? Someone with their own personality traits, emotions, thoughts, ideas, tastes, and so on, right? Oh wait, we lack a separate body, so we must NOT be people. Silly me, I guess I don’t have a fully formed personality. Or separate tastes, thoughts, and ideas/sarcasm. We have all of these things, aside from a body. So, why are we not counted? Why is it so threatening to consider us people? Is it because it fucks your perception of what is “reality”? Whatever the reason, the therapist was lucky he wasn’t talking to us. Eris would chew him out in a heartbeat.

The most disgusting thing in this “special” was when he talked about integration being the goal. He coldly talked about “integration by firing squad” and how the “alters” see it as a death sentence, and rightfully so. The “host” was crying, and she was scared and frightened of integrating. He stated that patients go through the stages of grief when integrating. One of the alters was sobbing about not wanting to disappear. If a system fully agrees to be integrated, that’s a different story. However, this is a decision that the system needs to reach on its own. The psych on there seemed like he was coercing her and her system into it. It was disgusting. If you feel as though you lost a family member, then what does that say about integration? And what of systems like us, who refuse to integrate? Fuck that bullshit, right there. Air is adamant about protecting our right to live. If she was ever told to integrate us, she’d probably flip out.

Also, this bullshit about being in extensive therapy? Haha no. Air herself is in therapy, for reasons completely unrelated to us and the way we are. We’ve never even been accused of being more than one person. This therapist gave a bad name to therapists like the one Air has, who is understanding and supportive. This one was cold, callous, and disgusting. He and Discovery Health perpetuated the same bullshit psycho circus sideshow that we see when singlets decide what we are and force us into some bullshit category and role that doesn’t fit us. Fuck that.

I feel horrible for the woman in question, and her system. They need help, and they’re not getting the proper help. Of course, the story ended with the woman happily working towards integrating into one personality. Nothing mattered except that she was just like everyone else. No mention of functionality was brought up that I remember, and it didn’t seem like she had the choice to keep everyone separate and live with multiplicity as a communicative system. It made it seem like integration was the “way to go” for everyone “suffering” from this “disorder”, and bravely triumphing over it!/sarcasm.

It is brave to get over abuse. It is brave to share your story. However, we can NOT condone the views held by experts on the show that treats us as disordered, weak victims who need some shrink to put us on meds and make decisions about what they feel is best for us, even if we disagree. Therapy can help, but not if you’re forced into things that go against what you feel is right, which is clearly the case shown in this segment. You’ve failed miserably, Discovery Health. Thanks for perpetuating the same myths we fight to get rid of.

We wrote Discovery about the issues we had about the show, and we are waiting to hear back from them. We’ll update this if/when we get a response, or if we don’t.


Air’s update: Well, we got a response.

Dear Viewer:

Thank you for contacting Discovery Health. We appreciate your
correspondence and for taking the time to share your thoughts and concerns
with us about The Woman with 15 Personalities.

In an effort to ensure the highest quality programming, comments such as
these are taken very seriously. Each and every comment is forwarded on to
our programming executives for review and consideration. Maintaining the
integrity of all of our networks is our primary goal. It is these types of
comments that contribute to creating change and improving our programming.

Again, thank you for contacting Discovery Health.


Viewer Relations
Discovery Health

Way to go, Discovery Health. Stay classy.